here we go again

So. It’s been a six month absence since I wrote on here. My apologies to my online friends, for disappearing without announcement. It wasn’t my intention. I needed a break (though I don’t think I understood that consciously).

It’s funny, how much your life can change in six months. I’ve moved back to the Seattle area, where I grew up (from Idaho). I’ve broken off my engagement. My family’s financial position feels like an antique plane spiraling down to the earth, engine smoking, propeller struggling, loose fragments of a wing not quite torn off, but flapping in the wind. And through all of this, I feel like I’m leaning back in my seat, asking, “Where is this going?”

The purpose of this blog has been creative writing, with a few random pieces here and there thrown in. It has always been about writing, and that won’t change. But I understand now, I think, why there is only basic writing tips out on the internet. ‘How to make a character’. ‘How to plot a story’. And it’s because no one really understands what the heck they’re doing.

The more I wrote on this journal, the more I questioned what I really knew. Bits and pieces, fragments of thoughts and incomplete musings. (What do I know, anyway?) But incomplete or not, flawed thoughts or no, I think I’ll hang about a while yet.

It’s good to be back.

fearless

I gave my notice at work today. I’m a project lead, not a tester, so I gave three week’s notice instead of two. Starting October, I’ll be officially writing full time. I have savings enough to live comfortably (if frugally) for several years. I’m also going to be moving to a small town in another state, between a lake and a mountain. Farm country.

On the wall beside my desk at work I taped a piece of paper, on which I’ve written, “Please don’t annoy the writer. She may put you in a book and kill you.” On the bottom left corner of that sheet I’ve taped up a dove candy wrapper. It’s nothing special, just wrinkled aluminum with a fortune cookie type message printed on the inside. This one says, ‘Be fearless.’

I think I’ll take that one with me when I go.


As for the book’s progress (for the curious)… I’m starting the last scene of the last chapter of the second draft.